The last week or so has been pretty rough for me. I just feel like there have been a lot of things going on, and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I don’t know what God wants me to do, or what direction He’s trying to tell me to go. Yesterday was just one of those days where it all piled on at once.
I was really frustrated with work. I kept getting kicked off the server, and it was making simple tasks take forever. I think that, on top of my other frustrations (and pregnancy hormones) were just enough to send me over the edge. At one point I went into Paul’s office. I honestly don’t even remember what we were talking about in his office, but I know I was short. When I get short, my attitude comes out often times without me meaning to have an attitude. He hates my attitude (so does everyone else in my family). I turned and walked back into my office thinking to myself that I probably just made him mad.
A few minutes later, Paul walks into my office. He gives me a big hug and kiss, and he says, “Do you know how much I love you?”. I just started crying, and apologizing while telling him all the things that have been running through my mind lately. After some reassuring words, he decides instead of having me make dinner he wants to take me out to get my mind off things. So after work, we headed out to dinner, and we had a great night together.
I think marriage comes with a learning curve. I think when Paul saw how short I was being he knew I was getting discouraged and frustrated. Instead of getting mad at me for being short, which typically would lead to a fight, he came and turned my day around. He knew exactly what I needed, and he came to my rescue. I cannot thank him enough for being our rock when I can’t. The longer we’re married, the more I see us learning about each other, and working together. I loved the beginning of our relationship where everything is new and exciting, but relationships change and evolve. Now, almost 2 years into our marriage, our relationship isn’t new, but it’s still exciting in completely different ways. We know more about each other then we’ve ever known, and we’ve grown together.
People always tell you marriage is hard, but what they don’t tell you is that it is so incredibly worth it.